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This entry was written and posted on my myspace page yestersay, just so everyone knows. I felt I may as well go ahead and update my other online journals while I was at it, for those of you who don't use myspace. Really, I have too many journals all over the net (yahoo360, myspace blogs and livejournal), all of which I can't seem to keep updated anyways. I don't really have too much to post this time, I guess...well, I guess I do it's just that it's late and I'm kinda' tired and...aw, I know I'm gonna post a novel anyways so why fight it?
To start with, how's life? Well, I'm still alive...I guess you can call that an accomplishment. Honestly? It's empty without my special boy here (in physical form) to hug and snuggle up to. I'm not talking about a guy, I have no interest in that really. I'm talking about my best friend, my dog, who I know most of you are probably aware of that I lost just this October (in the physical that is...I know he's always with me in spirit. So I always say just in the physical, you can never truly loose someone for their spirit is always there in your heart). I'm taking St. John's Wort for depression, and not seeing much affects. I may look into Valerian Root instead, a friend of mine who knows a lot about herbs was suggesting some things to me as well. Hugs to you, Cagey bro. You've saved my life more than once, so to speak.
What I'm really trying to do now is distract myself enough and try to focus on other things, although at the same time I want to keep thinking about it, because I wanna keep his memory alive forever. There are things I'd like to get done in his honor, and a recent snowstorm has made transportation difficult. Actually, one of the things I was planning on doing was to adopt a wolf in his name...there are a few places I can do that at, so I'm considering that a part of the holidays this year. I'm honestly not looking forward to the holidays that much, because every year the thing I looked forward to the most was watching the dogs open their christmas gifts. Billy always had the most fun with that, he'd smack the packages around the floor and tear them open, wagging his tail the whole time! Keechi, the dog we still have, well she loves getting gifts too of course, but she just doesn't enjoy opening them like him and expects us to do it for her.
Anyways, I'll switch the topic now I suppose, sorry for my rambling, but it helps to let it out somewhere I guess. I'm thankful to Dogster and Catster, the people and the animals there are very very friendly and the Over the Rainbow group that I joined has been helpful in that I've been able to talk to other people who are feeling the same pain I am.
I still feel guilty about so many things, and I suppose I always will...but I'm working on focusing on the good times, as opposed to those oh so rainy days.
To that topic change I just mentioned, I saw a very, very great movie tonight on A&E called "Wedding Wars". The movie, while keeping a light heart through most of it, deals with a very strong issue and has some intense and powerful messages about gay rights and equality for all. I think everyone should see this movie, I'm going to suggest to my mom it be played at a local peace network meeting too. I haven't seen a movie this good in quite sometime, several scenes gave me chills. Seeing people come together for a common cause is always amazing, and I could easily see myself as Shel (main character), marching back and forth to protest against something as horrible as a ban on gay marriage. The movie makes some great points, and while I won't ramble too much on it least I mess up the plotline, you can read more and see some video clips here:
http://www.aetv.com/weddingwars/index.jspAlso, I think A&E is replaying it a few times throughout the week, although I'm not postive. I'm sure you could check out the tv guide for that. ;)
Let me mention something else that was on my mind for quite sometime now and I just forgot to post it. Please read the following article about a serious crime that recently took place in Indianapolis against two innocent coyotes...
http://www.pet-abuse.com/pages/posts/20061115_60.phpTo quote the final line, "The trapper does face two citations for allegedly violating city ordinances by failing to post signs warning the public about dangerous animals on his property." ..... Excuse me? The only "dangerous" animal on this man's property is the man himself! If he could do something so sadistic and cruel to innocent animals, just think what else he is capable of. How can they consider this legal? It's far worse than just "inhumane".
I'll never understand some people, and I refuse to let this criminal just get away with this without a fight. Surely there is a way to start a petition and protest in some way. If he had done that to two humans he'd have jail time, or worse...and all life is equal, all life deserves respect. The lives of these coyotes should not go unknown, their suffering should not go unheard. This man does not deserve to be out on the streets and the forests where he can harm more lives, he's dangerous. "Trapper" is just another word for a sadistic person who enjoys hurting animals and watching them suffer, using their pain for profits.
If a wild animal is a "problem" in the area, there are humane ways to deal with it. Relocate them, there is no need to hurt them. In my eyes, the only "problem animals" are humans...afterall, WE came in and invaded THEIR land. This is their home first, we're only sharing it, and they have every right to live. This is injustice to animals. I saw a young coyote on the side of the road the other day, and it depressed me for the rest of the day...how people can just drive on past and not even notice it is confusing to me. If it were a human child on the side of the road, it'd cause major attention. How is an animal any less important or different?
A few weeks ago at the KFC protest I attend in our area, a group of around 5 or so teenagers came out with a wooden picket sign that must've had something really offensive written on it (I didn't see what, but my mom said "oh thats sick" out loud), and tearing off chunks of chicken flesh in front of us shouting things like "god made chickens to taste good" and "I like my urine soaked feces flesh!!!" and "god put chickens on earth for us to eat, man", "I support a man's right to eat chicken" "mm antiboditics and feces, chickens rock!!!" In reality, they were only making themselves look stupid, although it was hard to ignore their shouting and yelling. Idiots.
Animals are not ours to use in any way, shape or form. They are equals to us, for we ourselves are animals and they deserve equal rights and the basic right to live unharmed. As for pets, they are not "owned", nor are they our "property"...they are living creatures. Personally I have never thought of myself as a pet "owner", my animal family members are just that...family. They're just as important as any human member of our family. I think that's why I've sunk into such a depression lately, after loosing two of them. (physically), I've never been closer to another living thing than I was with my dog. No other family or friend, no other living thing, he will always be in the center of my heart and the utmost important being in the universe to me, and I love him always and forever.
Animals are our companions and friends, our family...they are fellow creatures with whom we share this earth.
We are one, every single creature deserves love and respect.
These are my views, and I stand next to them. If there's one thing left in this world for me to fight for, it's for animals. In the name and honor of my dog and cat who I recently lost (in physical form), I dedicate my life to fighting for animals and helping them in any way that I can. Probably the main talent I have is drawing, and although I'm far from "professional", I like to think my stuff is halfway decent and if I can use it to help animals then that's exactly what I'll do. Several months ago I made these stickers against Alaska's disgusting aerial wolf hunts:
http://www.geocities.com/akikos_aiyana/wolfstickers.bmp Keep in mind these were done quite a while ago, and mouse relined and colored, so they're certainly not the greatest. The point is, I feel it's one way for me to just...do something, y'know?
I get to where I'm shaking inside and out sometimes, I'm just so overwhelmed with the cruelty and ignorance of the majority of humanity. I would like to share this song too, the lyrics are so powerful...it's a wonderful theme song to live by, to follow...love for all:
http://animalsong.org/songs/fightus.htmlSorry for the ramble, I just felt this news story was worth sharing, that the message should get out there to all who care. For the coyotes, for all animals suffering at man's cruel hand. I'll post more later on.
Autumn/Akiko, the insomniac, vegetarian wolf.
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